I must say, I did not expect it to go this quick and it certainly wasn't as horrible as I thought it would be. I have actually learned a lot, about change, friends, family and most of all about myself.
Of course there are always people around you to support you in whatever you are going through and whatever you are doing or planning but the one person that actually has to do it is you, or in this case, me.
When I arrived here a year ago, I had no clue about what it was like to start all over somewhere new and to be honest, I was excited and scared at the same time. That's because I did not know how it was going to be; I did not know anyone at my school, I had no friends here, no work and I did not want to join a new dance team as I loved the one I danced in before. I have always been a very positive person and I could always see the bright side of situations but even I could not really turn off the negative thoughts I had about this change in the beginning. This was mostly during the summer holidays when I had to say goodbye to all the people I was going to miss so much. I know this sounds like I was never going to see them again and I know that I did not move all the way to Australia but still, stopping by for an hour to see someone, cycling to school with your best friend everyday, is all a bit difficult to do when living in another country.
When school started it September, that was when it really all began. No more hiding in my room, this was the time to finally face the truth of a completely new environment. Luckily, the school was not so bad at all, everyone was really helpful and understandable and I made friends in the first week already. I still could not fully concentrate on school at that time as I still could not really believe that I actually lived in England. It felt so unreal and all I could think about was how I could have my normal life back again.
I have posted a couple of months ago about school and the differences between England and the Netherlands so I won't do that again but here is the link if you want to have a look: 'Life in England so far'
Every time it was close to a holiday I got so excited, I could finally see everyone again! Although it is hard to visit everyone in a week or two and it will always be difficult to please everyone, I think I did alright and I hope I did not disappoint anyone. However, I do think that keeping in contact with friends and family should come from both sides and in a situation like this it is only a matter of time before you find out who your real friends are. Which, I am actually so grateful for because there is nothing worse than people who turn out to be not your friend after all.
As time passed by, I learned that I was the only one who could change the way I felt about the situation and I tried to take a different view. This was not always easy and there were times when I could not seem to accept the changes. I just did not know what to do about it. There are always choices and options to choose from in your life but at that point I could not see them at all, I could not go back to the Netherlands, I did not want to live here, I did not know what I wanted to do after high school and where I needed to be, but now, I think I managed to figure everything out because I do not feel that way anymore.
I am so happy where I am right know and despite all the negative thoughts I had, this change of moving countries has been good for me. First of all, my English has improved a lot which is really helpful for any future careers and also for writing this blog of course! In addition, I have taken on a different view on school and university and I am working really hard for where I want to be. My grades are better than they have ever been in the Netherlands. I push myself to work hard and stick to deadlines which I always had trouble with before. I am constantly looking at universities and what will be the best option for me. I work hard at my job and I manage to work a lot of hours per week and still do the best I can at school.
After this summer I have just one more year of high school left (although it feels like it's never-ending) and after that I hope to go to university where I want to study fashion (not designing but the business side of fashion). I want to keep improving my blog and write better posts. I will start saving up for a DSLR camera to make pictures with high quality. There are so much more things I want to do but this post is long enough already.
If you made it all the way to this paragraph, thank you and I hope you are not bored of all my rambling yet because I have just a few more words to say.
I think it is really important for everyone to step out of your comfort zone because you will learn so much about yourself. I have always been a girl with big dreams and goals for life but it is just so easy to stay where you are and not change anything in your life because it is easier. I loved my life the way it was, living in a small town where I knew literally every small corner, but taking on a challenge is so worth it. There is a whole world out there waiting for you so don't just follow the easy pathway but take on new challenges, go on an adventure, just simply follow those crazy dreams and discover a whole new you. Get rid of any people in your life trying to stop you from being the best you can, you do not need that negativity in your life, surround yourself with positive people who you know are always going to be there for you and also, be that person for others.
Finally, I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for everyone who supports me and stands by my side, it means a lot to me.
Love, Marlinde x